So this is really an embarrassing picture of me..Why am I sharing it then? Well this is the way I have been feeling lately..Shock, stress, the look of pain etc.!! My apologies if any of you have felt my wrath. I am usually the life of the party..Lately there is no party!!I have been feeling a lot of pressure lately. Whether it's being a good Mother or the heart ache of running a struggling business and not being a very good friend to My husband, Mom, Siblings and other Family and Friends. I just haven't had it in me lately. I really need to give myself props though. I do it all!! The only thing that I don't do is make enough time for myself. I need a major time out.
I work a full time job...not just any job but run a business with my Mom and Jason and even though the work load is no where near what it used to be I feel the stress of it even more. I can handle the stress from... how am I going to get all of this done? as opposed to the stress of losing loads or not having enough work, to not having money come in and the rise of the cost in fuel. My parents started this business nearly 25 years ago and Jason and I have been here with my Mom 10 years and in no way do I want to be doing this for ten more!!
I am a full time mom...and the stress that I have is no way easy on my kids. They truly are my little treasures and I am so grateful for them. They are so understanding..well most of the time. I know it's hard on them. I remember my childhood and my parents going thru the same things that we are going thru now. I tell my kids the same thing that I was told growing up. This is just the way it is. That's why it's so important to work hard at everything you do.
I am so grateful for great Family and friends. Especially the ones that send me emails or texts to see how I am doing and let me know that they are thinking of me. I know that I don't get away as often as I should with them but just knowing and talking shortly makes me feel quiet popular. It also helps keep my spirits up.
In no way am I looking for a pity party. I just know that I am doing the best job I can and that's all I can do. That's why I needed to spotlight myself! But I wouldn't be as awesome as I am with out the love and support that my family and friends give or the guidance of my Heavenly Father.
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"You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." - Christopher Robin :)
I know I don't have to say this, because you know it already, but we're here for you any time you need us. You'll make it through this and you'll be better off for it. Hang in there. We love you.
I love that you wrote this! You are super mom and that is that. I love peeking in on your blog as well. I think our oldest girls look a bit alike...both gorgeous! Just like their moms :)
Blogging isn't just about life's happy moments, it's about life in general and sometimes life just sucks. It's good to get your stress out, more people relate to you and it's nice to feel support. I hope things come off your plate soon. I'm thinking about you and hoping happiness comes your way!
Tawnie, you are so awesome and have been such a good friend to Matt and I. I know its hard to see or feel it now but things will get better, I promise!
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